I want to transition..

I have been toying with the idea for some time now and I always took 2steps forward and 3 steps back..
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I want all natural hair...ahhh the thought of whipping out my scissors and taking the permed chunk off still seems scary ooo...actually I am not new to hair cuts..,infact i can say I have been my own stylist for a long time from hair cuts, hair coloring, braiding ,retouching to fixing weaves...(believe me oo..no be joke at at all ...) I have done them all and most people get shocked when they compliment my hair and ask where I got it done and I say "i did it myself"...they mostly have this look O-O *owl-eyes..lol

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I want all natural hair..
but why am i scared to grab the scissors this time after-all I have cut my hair "anita baker" and "halle berry" styles myself more than 5times of which I got a Salon touch only once (..that was cos my aunt who owns a salon insisted) 
So why does it fell different this time..is it the haircut or the natural hair...??
I have been on relaxed hair for soo long the only break from it i ever had was the 6years in secondary school where haircuts were compulsory..(but one oyinbo girl was exempted sha oo..i was always jealous..lol)
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But,..,yeah...but I am going to transition anyways and see how I find it and hope somewhere I get the courage to whip out my scissors and do the do-do...and begin my exploration of wanting to know what having my God given hair texture would feel like..
Afterall if I miss straight hair..I could always use straighteners yeah? (who needs relaxers...? *sarcasm*)

Wish me luck....or chip in an advice..

Thankie..
Cheers,..xx